I hate when someone say ” I miss you ” and doesn’t do anything to change the fact that they do. You don’t wanna miss me ? solve it. Because the only person who could fix it is you.

I can see it in his eyes, and he’s been avoiding me all day
It seems as though he wants to cry, and he’s been acting really strange
He starts talking and I tuned him out
It doesn’t matter anyway because I knew as soon as I saw clouds.
I knew what he was gonna say.
Cause when the tears start flowing and the wind starts blowing,
That’s how you know it’s coming for you.
When the rain start falling and you feel the pain coming,
That’s how you know it’s coming for you.

Just like a hurricane, the way you break everything that comes in your way.
Just like a hurricane, the way you broke my heart and now I’m left with the pain
After the hurricane.

My pain, my insecurities. No its not my smile, but my cockiness. Im a mess. Im strong but i break and i cant be invincible. I hate myself so much, no one will ever know. and i tried losing weight but its not enough. Im trying to change myself and hasnt gotten me far. i’m ugly , inside and out. I’m saying this cause i dont want to feel this infinite pain anymore , I’ve tried on my own. and i cannot seem to find my confidence. i need help.

When i say ” I miss you” , “i need you” , “its okay” , “i’m tired” and even “i love you”. All those things i say, really are more than what they mean. i always say how i’m feeling, my feelings are just hiding in my words. 

Love is pain and pleasure. you have your ups, when you feel like gravity can’t even keep you on the ground. Everything isn’t as bad like it use to be and youll never have to face them alone. well because, your in love. it’s something that’s suppose to be treasured, and to be equal. Society loses sight of how important love really is, and that’s where the pain comes into play. you have your downs. Wether it is to love someone to much or to not love someone enough, its not a toy. if your in love, no matter how hard things get for you, you stick together. if you dont, that aint love.  Theres no excuses, no exceptions, no lies. Breaking up is hard to do but it’s even harder when your not suppose to. Me and boyfriend .. it’s just us against the world. we both have serious problems but what gets us through the day is each other. i dont want to hear no excuses, if you love someone that much, it should be enough. you you can’t , its because you dont love them.

i deleted my Facebook on my own in October because i hate those people. i hate all their faces and i really didn’t give a shit to what they have to say. if i’m going to make “friends” with anyone it would be on here. On my tumblr i’m not hiding who i am , what im afraid of telling people because once your on my blog , you have a pretty good idea with what your dealing with. Little old me. and if your still going to talk to me after what you see , id pick you any day.